You are to Me - Hungary 2009

You are to me:

life

love

breath

magic

heaven

air

destiny

12 Days of Christmas - Hungary 2009

I keep thinking about this song - on the 12 days of Christmas my true love gave to me:

1. a gorgeous voice to swoon by

2. beautiful dark chocolate pools of eyes to drink deeply in

3. a super cute smile and laugh to tickle me with

4. messages that proclaims truth from above

5. a fragile heart to hold together tenderly with unconditional love

6. intelligence that keeps me on my toes on a daily basis

7. dance moves that make me blush

8. a little boy spirit that needs to know that he is lovable and worth it

9. adorable ears that need to hear that everything is going to be alright

10. dreams big enough to set sail on

11. strength to withstand the storms that life throws at us

12. passion that rivals my own

This is who you are and more - and I love you - just as you are!

Dec. 3, 2009 - Hungary 2009

The parting of the reed sea has begun -

we are now exposed and naked to the world -

we can scream just like you used to do to embarrass me when we were walking down the road - this time I'll join you!

I seriously can't wait to dance up on you!

No more restrictions!

GOD IS AWESOME! And has kept us through this all!

I LOVE YOU!!!

Remember - Hungary 2009

I LOVE YOU! There is nothing else that matters! Hang on - I need you to pray - right now for us! Don't let go - and don't give up - you are strong enough! REMEMBER WHO YOU ARE AND WHOSE YOU ARE!!! YOU BELONG TO HIM - BUT YOU ARE MINE!!!!

Annointed - Hungary 2009

You are annointed in prophecy

You are annointed in tongues

You are annointed in knowledge

You are annointed in words

You are annointed in power

You are annointed in spirit

You are annointed

You were annointed in oil

by these hands

You were annointed in kisses

by these lips

You were annointed in sweat

by this body

You were annointed in love

by this heart

You were annointed

You will be annointed as a son of God

You will be annointed as a sooth sayer

You will be annointed as an overcomer of the enemy

You will be annointed as a subduer of the earth

You will be annointed as a beloved apostle

You will be annointed as a good and faithful servant

You will be annointed

Come, let me break my alabaster jar over your feet and wash you with my tears and dry you with my hair.

I bow in adoration of my beloved and I offer myself at his feet - all I am and have is yours.

AMAZING ANNOINTED HUSBAND

BELOVED MAN OF GOD

ELEVATED ABOVE ALL OTHERS

PASSIONATELY LOVED BEYOND REASON

COME QUICKLY

YOUR HELPMATE DELIGHTS IN YOUR PRESENCE

SHE PROCLAIMS THE GLORY OF YOUR MARVELLOUS DEEDS

SHE SINGS OF THE DEPTH OF YOUR WISDOM

SHE PREPARES THE WAY FOR YOUR ARRIVAL

SHE LAYS AWAKE IN PRAYER HASTENING YOUR COMING

SHE FIGHTS THE SPIRITUAL BATTLES FOR YOU

HER LOVE BINDS HER TO YOU FOR ALL ETERNITY

cOME QUICKLY

Abandonment - Hungary 2009

Before I can remember, my father left me

Before you can remember, your father left you

Before I was in school, my mother walked away

Before you could defend yourself, your mother hurt you

Before I was in puberty, my family left me with untrustworthy people who abused me

Before you were in puberty, your family left you with untrustworthy people who abused you

Before High School, everyone I loved walked away

Before High School, everyone you loved used you

Before becoming an adult, my innocence was stolen

Before becoming an adult, your innocence was stolen

Before meeting you, I made stupid mistakes

Before meeting me, you made stupid mistakes

All of these things hurt us deeply

All of these things cause us to not trust

All of these things make us scared that everyone in our lives will abandon us

But we have two promises to cling to that God says to us:

1. I will never leave you nor forsake you!

2. I love you more!

I vow to you that I will keep those promises as well:

1. I will never leave you nor forsake you!

2. I love you more!

The necklace around my neck is my badge of honor that I belong to you & I am proud of it!

I have never taken it off since you put it around my neck, whenever anyone asks, I tell them it is like my engagement ring - the symbol that I belong to one man - Angello Castero.

I will always be here to love you - no matter what - come what may!

For better or worse, for richer or poorer, in sickness & in health, until death do us part.

I promise to love and cherish you all the days or our lives!

Hopelessly Devoted - Hungary 2009

I want you here with me!

I want to kiss away the pain!

I want to stroke away the doubt!

I want to worship away the fear!

I want you to believe how completely devoted I am to you and your well being!

I need you to hang on!

I need you to pray!

I need you to seek God!

I need you to stand with me!

I need you to trust me that I am working hard to ensure our future!

I don't want to disappoint you!

I don't want to hurt you!

I don't want to frustrate you!

I don't want to say anything bad about you!

I don't want you to do the same to me!

I never want to live with out you!

I never want to be apart from you!

I never want anyone but you!

I never want hear anyone's voice but yours!

I never want to wake up without you next to me!

If you want someone who will be hopelessly devoted to you - she's waiting right here - come and get her!

Longing - Hungary 2009

Love of my life

heart

mind

body

and soul!

A thousand times yes!

I scream to you

over the ocean

over the land

over the air!

I long for the day

that we will be reunited

never to part again!

Sacrifice - Hungary 2009

All I have is yours

I have held nothing back from you

I have given you everything

There is nothing I have denied you

There is nothing that I have not given you

that was in my power to give

I have torn my heart out of my chest

I gave you my love

I have gotten on my knees and begged people

I gave you my dignity

I have bankrupted myself

I gave you my money

I have exposed myself

I gave you my body

I have starved myself

I gave you my health

I can honestly say that I have given you even more than I have given God

I have done all of this to prove my love to you

to prove to you that I choose you over all the world

I have nothing left to give except words

That is what these words are here to say. . .

I DON'T CARE ABOUT ANY OF THOSE THINGS

I CARE ABOUT YOU

I CHOOSE YOU

I LOVE YOU

YOU ARE WORTH IT

Why do you keep questioning my loyalty?

Why do you keep not believing in my love?

Why do you keep giving me ultimatums?

Why do you keep trying to walk away?

STOP IT!

STOP TRYING TO SABATOGE OUR LIFE!

STOP LETTING THE FEAR IN!

I am right here waiting!

Sacrificing everything I have for you!

Fighting for you every day!

Praying for you every day!

Giving you my all!

You are my everything

I am nothing without you

Please don't let them win

Please don't give in

Please keep fighting

I love you and I will never give up!

Ravage - Hungary 2009

I woke up in the middle of the night and I couldn't catch my breath!

Ravage Me!

I wrapped my legs around your body and squeezed!

Ravage me!

I unhinged my jaw to take you in!

Ravage me!

How low can you go!

Ravage me!

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!

Ravage me!

DO IT AGAIN!

You Are Here - Hungary 2009

I catch a glimpse of red -

and I think you are here!

I dance in the rain -

and I feel you near!

A deep voice resonnates -

and my body quivers!

I feel wind caresses -

down my spine comes a shiver!

An english accent cuts through the air -

and I jump out of my seat!

I wake up in the middle of the night -

and wonder if this is the day we will meet!

You are here!

With me -

Everywhere!

I will always be here! - Hungary 2009

I will always be here!

I will always love you - no matter what!

I will always be proud of you!

I will always brag about the amazing man that you are!

I will always belong to you!

I know that no matter what I will always be here waiting for you. I belong to you. I was made for you. God saved my heart for you alone. There never has or ever will be another. So yes, when I read your poem last night saying - "God if something happens with this just end my life" - that is how I feel. I cannot live without you. I cannot breathe without you. I am lost without you. My heart was pulled out of my chest and given to you the day that I intertwined my fingers in yours! A person will die without their heart.

These things I do know - you love me, you don't want to hurt me, you just want me to be complete and whole and strong enough to love and support you completely. You don't want to relive those past experiences that devastated you.

I want the same thing! As long as we end each conversation with I love you - I know that no matter what else you said everything is gonna be alright!

Redemption - Hungary 2009

You are redeemed from your past

You are redeemed to your future

You are redeemed to thrive in your present

It is not by you but by the precious blood of JESUS CHRIST

Never forget that!

How Much - Hungary 2009

Just wanted to remind you how awesome you are!

How beloved you are!

How covered in prayer you are!

How much someone is proud of you!

How much you are loved by your heavenly father!

How powerful you are!

How strong you are!

How much you are needed by your family to be!

How much someone believes in you!

How amazing you are!

How gorgeous you are!

How much you can overcome anything!

How much you can succeed at anything you put your mind too!

How talented you are!

How completely, totally, overwhelmingly, ravishingly in love I am with you!

To the other side of me - I give you all I am - Your Wife - Furaha!

The Key - Hungary 2009

What I wanted to say last night but didn't have time to say -

how bad I want you, need you, love you, miss you -

there is only one place you belong forever – in worship in the holy of holies!!!!!! I want to tremble at your majesty! Quiver in awe of your power! Shake in mystical ecstasy! Get on my knees before you and give God all the glory!

All I need in life is you! There is only you! You are my life! To quote the song I sent you yesterday – you are the reason!

Do you know that you can do anything that you set your mind to? Did you know that the only thing that you need is love? Because who is love? And where do you find it – every day of your life – unconditionally? Hmmmm. . . . I KNOW!

I LOVE YOU MY CURSE BREAKING HUSBAND!!!!!

NOTHING THAT STANDS AGAINST YOU SHALL PROSPER

NOTHING THAT BINDS THE PATH CAN HOLD

NOTHING THAT BELONGS TO THE ENEMY WILL OVERCOME

NOTHING THAT CAUSES PAIN WILL REMAIN

YOU ARE THE KEY – NOT JUST THE DOOR OPENER – THE MOST IMPORTANT PIECE – WITHOUT YOU – EVERYTHING REMAINS CLOSED – EVERYTHING IS BARRED – EVERYTHING FALTERS – WITH YOU HEAVEN COMES TO EARTH AND THE WORLD IS REDEEMED!

OH HOW POWERFUL THE RIVER THAT FLOWS FROM THE THRONE OF GRACE THROUGH THE CHOSEN VESSEL – OVERFLOWING PAST CONTAINMENT – FOREVER TO REMAIN IN VIVACIOUS BLISS – THE EBENEEZER FOR ALL THE WORLD TO SEE – SON OF THE MOST HIGH AND BELOVED OF THE FAVORED ONE!

THE PAST HAS BEEN OVERCOME – THE PRESENT IS HERE TO PASS – BUT THE FUTURE CONTAINS THE VICTORY – DRINK DEEPLY OF HER SWEETNESS – FOR THOUGH WE CANNOT YET SEE THE MAJESTIC SPLENDOR – THE INDWELLING SPIRIT FEELS HER PRESENCE NOW AND SINGS HER INTO BEING WITHIN YOU

LOVE NEVER FAILS – IT IS ALL THAT REMAINS!

Words Cannot Express - Hungary 2009

EVERY MORNING I WAKE UP AND SAY

"I CHOOSE YOU AND I CHOOSE GOD!"

THERE HAS ONLY EVER BEEN YOU

YOU ARE MY ANGEL

YOU ARE MY LIFE

YOU ARE MY BREATH

YOU ARE THE REASON I GET UP EVERY MORNING

THERE IS NOTHING WITHOUT YOU

YOU INSPIRE ME

YOU BRING OUT THE BEST IN ME

WITHOUT YOU THERE WAS ONLY MOROSE POETRY

WITH YOU THERE IS MUSIC

THERE IS MINISTRY

THERE IS LIFE

THERE IS LOVE

THERE IS HOPE

I NEED YOU BY MY SIDE

TO MAKE IT THROUGH THE DAY

MY LIFE ONLY BEGAN WHEN I MET YOU

JESUS DIED AT 33 - I CAME TO LIFE!

THERE ARE NOT ENOUGH WORDS

I SING OVER YOU

I PRAY OVER YOU

I PRAISE GOD EVERY SECOND OF EVERY DAY FOR MAKING YOU

I THANK GOD FOR THE BLESSING OF YOU THAT I DON'T DESERVE

I KNOW YOU ARE THE CHOSEN ONE

I KNEW FROM THE VERY FIRST TIME I LAID EYES ON YOU

YOU WERE MY DESTINY

YOU FULFILL MY PROPHECY

YOU ARE MY ANGEL

I'VE SAID IT BEFORE AND I'LL SAY IT AGAIN

YOU COMPLETE ME

YOU WILL HEAL ME

IT HAS ALREADY BEGUN

I WILL BE ON THE FRONT ROW

SMILING UP AT YOU

WHEN YOU PREACH YOUR FIRST SERMON IN AMERICA

WHEN WE SELL OUR 1 MILLIONTH COPY OF OUR BEST SELLING LOVE STORY -

THE TRUE STORY OF OUR LIVES

WHEN YOU SHAKE THE PRESIDENT'S HAND

WHEN YOU BURST OPEN THE GATES OF HELL AND SET THE CAPTIVES FREE

I AM YOURS - BUT I BELONG TO HIM

I WAS MADE FOR YOU

I WAS KEPT FOR YOU

I WAS BLESSED BY YOU

I WAS ANNOINTED BY YOU

I WAS GIVEN TO YOU

I AM YOURS

FOREVER AND ALWAYS

A Psalm of April Castero - Hungary 2009

I will sing a new song to the Lord!

I will sing of his love and compassion -

I will sing of his mercy and grace -

I will sing of how He carried

me all the days of my life!

I will walk in His confidence -

I will walk in His victory -

I will walk in His joy

and be contagious for everyone!

I will praise His name forever -

I will praise His amazing works -

I will praise His wonderful creation

and teach others to stand in awe!

I will sing a new song to the Lord!

One Month Ago - Hungary 2009

One month ago you got down on one knee -

One month ago I said yes -

One month ago my life began -

One month ago we became one!

I love you more than words

I love you for who you are

I love you forever and always

I love you MORE!

I will always desire you

I will always need you

I will always want you

I will always be. . .

Right Here Waiting!

The Joy of. . . The Congo - Hungary 2009

Furaha

Singing

Dancing

Praying

Learning

Praising God together

The most beautiful sight

is the Congolese women doing the chicken dance!

My favorite touch

is the hug Ogi gives me after running to meet me!

The most wonderful sound

is the Ebeneezer Choir singing in acapella a swahili worship song!

My favorite taste

is the fresh bananas in the morning!

The best smell

is the air right before a Congolese muvua!

Tutaonana - Beni 2009

Hapana, hamalizi

Ninajua Beni katika roho

Ninajua pendo wangu anaangalia

Ninajua wanafunzi wanaomba

Iko kuanza leo

Maisha langu katika Yesu

Mungu ananibariki

Roho Mutakatifu anasaidia

Nitasifa Bwana wangu!

Africa - Beni 2009

Your children are beautiful

They hunger for Your grace

Your creation surrounds them

they flow at a slower pace

Send your reign

to bring them peace

take them to heaven

to eat at Your glorious feast

They sing your praises

to the beat of a drum

Their call and response

is followed by a hum

Send your love

to bring them home

Hold them close to you

so they no longer rome!

On One Knee- Beni 2009

We walked through the gate

"This is where it all began"

I exclaimed - "Home Sweet Home"

He led me to our tree

I closed my eyes

He began to cry

On one knee

I said yes

And drank deeply

of his kisses

and tears

No matter what

come what may

I will marry you!

Becoming One - Beni 2009

Flesh of my flesh

Bone of my bone

One heartbeat

One mind

Two souls entertwined

Picture of Relationship

One vision

One goal

Today - Beni 2009

His mercies are new every morning!

Today I choose to start fresh!

Today I choose you!

Today I choose an abundant life!

Today I choose to walk away from my past!

Today I choose a fresh filling of the Holy Spirit!

Come Lord Jesus Come!

His mercies are new every morning!

Sustaining - Beni July 2009

Blessed Assurance

Confident Hope

We are receiving

a foretaste

of glory divine!

Perfect Love

Redeeming Faith

Drives out

all fear

of this world!

Complete Patience

Enduring Faithfulness

Blesses us

with perfect gifts

from above!

Oh, how He loves us so!

Covenant - Beni 2009

Vow

Sacrifice

Love

Oath

Blood

Unity

God came and sealed

What Satan used to destroy

Grace flows down and

Mercy is new every morning

Contract

Faith

Hope

Covenant

Man

God

Conversations in the Dark - Beni 2009

Blessings

come

when 

we run

out of

mazute.

The dark

covers 

like a

blanket.  

We bring

our souls

out to

bare.

Others

speak 

truth

into our

lives.

We don't

have to

hide

in the 

night.

Only You - Beni 2009

I Believe

I Receive

The amazing love set before me

I promise

I will complete

The tasks you ask me to do

I praise

I thank you

for sending heaven to earth

I know 

I feel you

leading me down your path

I realize

I am found

Only in you!

First Love - Beni 2009

Love lies broken and bleeding

Two damaged people lay in wake

How do you return from devastation?

I cry out to God

from the depth of my soul

I feel like humpty dumpty

put me back together again

There is a stirring over the waters

The annointing begins to flow

healing is on the horizon

A prayer sounds on my lips

and springs from my heart

The peace that passes all understanding

reminds me who I belong to

A small voice whispers

I am my beloveds

and he is mine

Chills - Beni 2009

Chills run up and down my spine

every time I think that "you are mine!"

My heart pounds inside my chest

during my sleepless dreams there is no rest

I shiver and shake as I go through the day

I wonder if I'm giving myself away

The desire of you overwhelms my soul

I realize now only you make me whole

Nothing has ever consumed me before

I long for the day where we can shut the door

and experience the fullness of love

unconditionally!

Healing Love - Beni 2009

I am strong

I have love

My love for you is strong!

I am healed

God is love

My healing came through God!

God is strong

You have love

Your strength will come through God!

You will be healed

I love you

You will be healed through my love!

HOPE - TIKVAH - Beni 2009

I almost let hope die

Then you walked through the door

And my world was turned upside down

All those things I thought I'd buried

Resurfaced for all the world to see

And then hope reappeared

How beautiful my vision

How clear the view

How spectacular the sight

Hope revived what was lost

Hope restores what was stolen

Hope replaced what was missing

How full the peace that flows

How fragrant the scent of love

How figurative the faith that binds

You walked me through the healing

The world could see a change

The smile radiated across my face

You came at the perfect time

You sticked up what was bleeding

And hope was reborn

SHUV - Ben 2009

Confession - Repentance - Forgiveness - Restoration

These Things I know!

For the Bible tells me so!

I need to remember to whom I belong -

because I am weak but He is strong!

Yes, Jesus loves me!

These things I know!

For I have looked unconditional love in the face

while it stands there gushing out hate!

because I am strong but he is weak!

Yes, I am lovable!

These things I know!

For someone chose to say that to me!

He confessed before an audience - 

because I am weak but he is strong!

Admitting - Walking Away - Healing - Change

Pain - Beni 2009

Vomit

Spew

Blow Chunks

Hurl

It all comes pouring out of him

It all comes pouring out of me

It hurts

Dear God!

It's painful

I'm breaking

He runs into himself

I run out of myself

Calm

Peace

Strength

Faith

The choice is his

I've already made mine

To walk through the pain

with our hands entertwined

Through the Heat of the Night - Beni 2009

It was a long night

Our hands intertwined

We walked through the heat of the night

Our pupils dilated

We walked through the heat of the night

Our fingers interlaced

We walked through the heat of the night

Our hearts palpitated

We walked through the heat of the night

Is it a warm evening,

Or is it just me?

Open Book - Beni 2009

I open my life

for all the world to see

I open my hands

to give freely

I open my heart

for love to return to me

I open my mouth

to encourage truly

I open my eyes

to see the world around me

I open my ears

to hear those in need

I open my arms

to embrace others gently

I open myself

to destroy the fear completely

Freedom - Beni 2009

Where the spirit of the Lord is

There is freedom

Independence

Brightness

Showers

Liberty 

Responsibility

Choice

Freedom

Blessing

Openness

Where the Spirit of the Lord is

There is Freedom!

Walk in it!

Release - Beni 2009

Letting go

is the hardest thing

you'll ever know

Control is an illusion

this thing

I know for sure

God is my redeemer

he can turn my bad

into good

Breathe just breathe

release it all

letting go