Lowly - Mill Valley 2001

Lord, I am nothing

How can I be called your servant?

Lord, my best is like fithy rags

How can I be called your child?

Days when I stumble

Days when I fall

I feel as if I am even lower than Satan

How do you love me?

How do you care?

I cannot comprehend the depth

of your compassion

I despise my actions

and I know you do to

Then how do you forget them

in a moments notice?

Lord, I love you

I feel like I love you

but if to love you is to keep

your commandments

than I'm afraid I only like you.

A Reimagining of Jonah 2: A Hymn of a Suicidal Believer - Mill Valley 2001

The waters of my life encompass me.  

The deep surrounds me and troubles bind to my head.  

Through the mountains I descend and the earth bars the way behind me forever.  

From the pit of despair you, Yhvh Elohim, carry me out.  

As I begin to lose control of my life, I remember You.  

I pray toward your throne in Heaven.  

I see other people making the mistakes I had made, 

and forsaking the relationship you established with them.  

Instead, I call with a voice of praise and offer myself as a living sacrifice for you, 

because it is only through you Yhvh, that salvation is granted!